Do you remember the theme of our regular meeting in November?
　

Probably not. Because of Thanksgiving Day. Almost all of the Toastmasters clubs were talking about “appreciation”. Therefore, I delivered a speech “My best life companion” which was my dog, Haji. I was grateful for his company. And I got the best speaker. At that time, I was kind of happy that Haji successfully played the role of my muse again.
　

However, three days later, he passed away. Although I knew a 15- year- old dog was quite old, I thought I was ready for the worst situation. In fact, I couldn’t accept his death yet. My heart was broken. I cried my eyes out.

I woke up in tears without him by my side. I sat on my bed wondering should I get up or not. I used to get up early and walked my dog at the park. After he died, I couldn’t step into the park. I even shed tears when I passed by.

The most difficult moment for me was that I went home after work.

When I opened the door, Haji wasn’t sitting at the door and waiting for me with his wagging tail. It’s just a dark and quiet house instead. I couldn’t help myself thinking of him. And I burst out crying alone in the house. I was left with a feeling of emptiness.
　

I lost not only my dog but also my interest in Pokemon Go. That was my favorite cellphone game. I used to enjoy catching Pokemon with Haji. I was surprised that I fell into deep sorrow for my dog. My rational brain told me that I probably got a little bit depressed. It was not good for me. My dog gave me his whole love. He won’t be happy to see me like this.
　

I must do something to lift up my spirit. Since I felt sad, when I was alone. I better kept myself busy. Due to Christmas, there were so many activities. Why not say yes to anyone who needed my help.

1.    My friend invited me to be a volunteer for Paper windmill Theater. What did I say? I said Yes.

2.   Our president and K1 area director held a board game party for our members. They invited me to be one of the game masters. What did I say? I said Yes.

3. When our VPE, Bess, asked me whether I could be a contestant or not. What did I say? I said Yes. That’s why I’m standing here.
　

I spent my spare time on helping and serving others. Mentally, I made my life meaningful. Every time I did it. I felt my heart was mended piece by piece. Physically, it wore me out, so I fell asleep easily.
　

Over time, I don’t cry often, but I still think of my dog often. I appreciated his kindness. He chose a good timing for me. Because he died in November after my son got an honorary discharge from the army in October. Haji didn’t leave me alone. He knew I needed a company who could help me through this sorrow. I was grateful for his perfect plan. With his love, I can go walking in the park again.
　

Although I lost my dog, being sad shouldn’t stop me from enjoying my life.
　

I’ll always cherish the good time we spent together. Those memories are timeless treasures in my heart. Death is a part of life. Nothing is permanent in life. Maybe you also lost someone you love, your family, your friend, your pet. Or something you love, your career, your investment, your money. Or maybe you just feel a little bit blue with no reason. Try to think about the good things in your life. I accept some days will be good, some days will be difficult.
　

Mother Teresa said, “how to bring joy to life? You must make your life meaningful.” How do I make my life meaningful? To love and to be needed is the last lesson I learned from my dog. So, ladies and gentlemen, my deer Toastmasters members, what will you do to make your life meaningful?

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